In 2006 through a chapter when I dealt with fear around cancer, I addressed some of my edges. Spirit spoke to me and literally downloaded the following with insights and inspiration, guidance and glory. Now through preparation into today for my third awake brain surgery tomorrow, spirit instructed me to these messages with support to love, light, and freedom. I share it with all of you.

How can I bear my fear? How can I dance in life while confronting a disease that represents death?

“Fear, what is inside of you? What are you made of?” I inquire.

“I am darkness interfering with your light. I am your desire to control. I am your doubt,” responds Fear. “I am not of your truest essence. However, I am of your creation. I represent your worst nightmares. And as with all dreams, they are manifestations of consciousness. You have the power to create another script.”

“How can I release you?” I ask.

“Dwell in your light. Embrace life. Maintain a strong, calm mind. Then defer to your heart. Love yourself. This time is one of great challenge. And, it is an opportunity for you to further cultivate your own strength,” says a voice inside of me. I don’t know if I’m speaking to Fear, or my own inner truth, and yet both seem to arise from the same source.

The voice continues, “When you begin to feel fear, dance with it. Look fear in the eyes. Ask what you are really afraid of. It is really death, or are you afraid of life? As you engage fear, it will integrate into you and lose its power. You can also choose to ignore fear. Refusing to give fear power builds strength and character. However, fear will visit again until you learn what you need from it.”

“What am I really running from? What do I fear?” I inquire.

“I’ve held you through this pain many times. You are afraid of death. You are afraid of mortality. You are afraid of a brain tumor. And yet, death, mortality, and the tumor are your teachers. You have also been afraid of life, and now is the time to live it fully. The fear associated with the tumor loses its power when you fully embrace life and the truth of your existence, of your being,” the voice says.

“What is that truth? Who am I?” I ask.

“You are more than your physical body. You are more than your identity as Jeannine Walston. Your physical body is the host to a soul that continues beyond your physical death. In each physical incarnation, your soul learns lessons for its own development. Each life, and the experiences within it, are for your soul’s maturation. Know that your soul is full of infinite light and love. Dwell in that spaciousness, and there is no fear. There isn’t death or mortality. There isn’t even a tumor. There is only freedom,” the voice responds.

“But, I’m in this body, and I suffer. How can I cultivate inner peace?” I plead.

“By transcending the ego focused state,” the voice tells me.

“And, if I don’t need to have fear around the brain tumor, what am I missing? What do I need to heal? There is some perceived lack of, but lack of what?” I state grasping to suffering.

“There is no lack. Transcend the mind’s construct of ‘self.’ By trusting and surrendering to the higher power of universal light, you will connect with your innate wholeness and perfection. Within this light, there is eternity. This light comprises your soul. You are the light. Through this light, you inherently possess everything you ever truly need. By embracing the truth of who you are, there is boundless, pure freedom,” the voice gently assures me.

“You are so abundantly loved. You come from love, and are love. Give that love fully to yourself, and you will find freedom.”