Last week I was on vacation with my favorite kids in the world, brother John, sister-in-law Megan, and parents. I have not found my soul mate yet. To be continued. The trip was my mom’s vision for several years to vacation together. Our family circle weaves the 39 years of my life. I do not have any other family members. My parents’ siblings have made the decision to not be in our life (well, my dad is in touch with his sister, brother, and nephew, but they are not connected with any of us). After every holiday with my aunts, uncles, and cousins for my entire childhood and into my early adulthood, their departure made me question true love and trust. Along with efforts to reside in the present moment, I crave connections for reliable love and trust in my own healing. My family members and good friends in my life nourish that process as well as kindness from many sources.
I really love my brother John and my parents. And we are definitely different. I’ve utilized more expression, observations, analysis, and depth. John used to call me “Dr. Walston.” As we’ve evolved as individual human beings, our heart connections remain with strength. The crisis of my chapters dealing with my two awake brain surgeries brought us closer, and most recently with my second surgery September 1, 2011. John told me, “I’ll be there for you.” His voice became even more direct after a pause. “I will be there for you and support you.” (John is also the best contractor in the Albany, NY area as Co-President of Skyland Services, Inc.)
Sometimes my heart skips a beat like withering from adequate water to thirst. My entire presence then flourishes with shifts in my feelings, thoughts, beliefs, and environment, including with the healing light from my favorite kids. My nephew James, and nieces Anna and Mae are my most precious little angel kids on Earth. I am James’ Godmother and with an organic union from his birth. My knowledge of his sensitivity also cultivates a map with understanding. Anna’s sassy, carefree, and confident self shines laughter everywhere. Mae’s intense proactive brilliance inspires my wonder. Play, conversations, touch, honesty, and how they show me the growth as kids gives and gifts me to tears of joy.
Healing light is around each of us. Visible and invisible, they present in all ways. The healing environment of love and light abounds. See you there, see you everywhere.